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A rare glimpse into heaven, hell, and previous lives—Dr. Rajiv Parti's near-death experience brought him on a journey through the afterworld, leading to a spiritual awakening that transformed his career, his lifestyle, and even his fundamental beliefs.
Before his near-death experience, Dr. Rajiv Parti was a wealthy man of science with a successful career as the Chief of Anesthesiology at the Bakersfield Heart Hospital in California. He demanded the same success from his son, whose failures provoked episodes of physical abuse from Dr. Parti. All in all, Dr. Parti was the last man to believe in heaven or hell—that is, until he saw them with his own eyes.
When Dr. Parti had his near-death experience on the operating table, he first watched his own operation from the ceiling—even recalling a joke told by his doctors during his surgery. He was greeted by archangels and his deceased father who led him through the tortures of hell and revealed the toxic cycle of violence that has plagued his family for generations. He even reviewed the struggles of his previous lives which, in many ways, reflected those he still faced in the present. Finally, he experienced heaven. From the angels, he learned lessons of spiritual health that they insisted he bring down to earth—to do so, Dr. Parti knew he had to change his ways.
After his near-death experience, Dr. Parti awoke a new man. He gave away his mansion, quit his career, opened a wellness clinic, and completely turned around his relationships with his family. To this day, he still converses with angels and spreads their wisdom to the living.
In this remarkable true story of spiritual transformation, Dr. Parti provides rare details of heaven, hell, the afterlife, and angels. In sharing the lessons and eternal truths from the Divine that changed him forever, Dr. Parti offers his audience the opportunity to attain peace and live a better life here on Earth.
- Sales Rank: #898456 in Books
- Published on: 2016-08-23
- Original language: English
- Dimensions: 9.02" h x .55" w x 5.98" l, .66 pounds
- Binding: Paperback
Review
"One of the most astounding near death experiences I have heard." (Raymond Moody, MD, bestselling author of Life After Life)
“This is one is one of the most amazing NDEs I’ve everheard, not just for the experience itself, but for the difference it has madein Dr. Parti’s life.” (Dannion Brinkley, New York Times bestselling author of Saved by the Light)
“Dr. Parti’s NDE is powerful, deeply spiritual, and transformative, not just for the man who experienced it, but for the person who reads about it, too.” (Anita Moorjani, New York Times bestselling author of Dying to Be Me)
"Healed by his near-death experience, Dr. Rajiv Parti has become a healer himself—a true doctor of the soul. The story of his amazing transformation from a materialistically-obsessed anesthesiologist to a spiritual teacher is one of the most inspiring I have encountered in nearly forty years of researching NDEs." (Kenneth Ring, Ph.D., author of Lessons from the Light)
"Dr. Rajiv's NDE is amazing, and the shift he made in his life afterwards will melt your heart. Buy this book so that you too will wake up." (Beverly Brodsky, President, San Diego Chapter, International Association of Near Death Studies (IANDS))
“I love Rajiv Parti’s story. It’s full impact was revealed to me when Rajiv found himself in hell. His father and guide, took him by the hand and led him out of hell. His father gave him a meaningful and significant message I will always remember.” (Larry Merrill, Facilitator, IANDS, Mesa, Arizona)
“Dr. Rajiv Parti’s experience of consciousness was one of the most profound I have heard. He traveled from hell to heaven, and learned what life is really about. Dr. Parti has much to teach us about the meaning of life and why we are here.” (Ellie Schamber, Ph.D., Leader of Marin IANDS)
“Dr. Parti’s story is extraordinary, not just because his near-death experience was so profound and evidential, but because as a physician, he links science and spirit in an account that bridges both worlds.” (Terri Daniel, Founder of the Death Awareness Institute and The Afterlife Conference)
"Dying to Wake Up serves as a spiritual wake-up call. Far more than the riveting account of a Near Death Experience, Rajiv Parti's powerful story is filled with wisdom and Truth that speaks directly to the soul." (Suzanne Giesemann, evidence-based medium and author of Messages of Hope and Wolf's Message)
About the Author
Rajiv Parti, MD, is a world-renowned specialist in pain management with over thirty years as a cardiac anesthesiologist. In addition to being Chief of Anesthesiology at Bakersfield Heart Hospital for more than a decade, Dr. Parti is founder of the Pain Management Institute of California. Dr. Parti’s study in complementary and alternative medicine has led him to formulate an integrative approach to total wellness, especially pain management, stress, and depression. He tours the country extensively, holding workshops to demonstrate methods of healing to help others overcome addiction, depression, chronic pain, and even cancer.
Paul Perry has cowritten four New York Times bestsellers, including Evidence of the Afterlife, Closer to the Light, Transformed by the Light, and Saved by the Light.
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Dying to Wake Up Introduction The Frozen Man
By all indications, the patient on the operating table was dead. His heart was stopped, and his body drained of blood. There was no respirator turned on to keep him breathing and no oxygen being fed to his lungs. The EKG machine that would ordinarily beep in time with his heartbeat was silent because there was nothing to beat in time with. All of his organs had stopped functioning, and his brain revealed no waves on the EEG machine.
In fact, the patient wasn’t dead, not really. He was in suspended animation through a surgical procedure known as hypothermic cardiopulmonary bypass and circulatory arrest, a procedure that replaces the patient’s blood with a cool fluid that lowers body temperature to approximately 50 degrees Fahrenheit and stops all bodily functions. Just like death, but not quite.
The purpose of the surgery in his case was to repair a tear in the aorta, the main artery leading from his heart. This is a dangerous surgery, but there was little choice. Without it, his weakened aorta would eventually burst and kill him instantly. If the surgery didn’t kill him, he would have a normal life span. He was almost damned if he did, but definitely damned if he didn’t.
I was the anesthesiologist on the case. As chief of the department of anesthesiology for the Bakersfield Heart Hospital, I was trained for these difficult and dangerous surgeries. It was my job to administer anesthesia to the patient while the surgeons opened his chest to expose the heart. Then, after the surgery, when warm blood was returned to his body, my role was to keep him safely and deeply anesthetized as we brought him back to life. In between, when the cooling solution filled the circulatory system and the patient’s vital signs appeared as flat lines on the monitors, I had little to do but observe the deft hands of the surgeons as they performed their delicate and complex patchwork on this king of all arteries. They had only sixty minutes to work their magic. After that the patient would likely die or suffer neurological damage.
When we brought this patient to the operating room, he was already heavily sedated. I spoke to him momentarily when we transferred him to the operating table, but he didn’t have much interest in conversation. The sedation and the realization of what was about to happen had sunk in and he remained silent, wondering, I am sure, if I was the last person he would ever see. I didn’t give him much time to think about it. I injected propofol and other anesthetic drugs into the saline tube placed in an arm vein and watched him drop off to sleep. After placing an endotracheal tube into his windpipe, I watched carefully as the patient’s chest was opened and his heart prepped for the surgery. Then a surgical specialist administered the cold perfusion fluid, and another carefully drained his blood into an oxygenator that would keep it primed with oxygen and clot free. Before long the patient was in suspended animation, and the surgery had begun.
Over the years I have worked on several of these operations, and they always amaze me. The genius of the research that led to this surgery, the deep concentration of the skilled surgeons—to me this procedure took medicine to a new frontier.
From my place at the head of the table, I looked down at the patient. He seemed as dead as any dead patient I have ever seen, yet he would make it back to life and be among the living for many years.
For the next hour, I watched the chief surgeon work with speed and urgency, racing against the clock to repair the damaged artery. The room was filled with controlled tension and fear, and not just because of the delicate nature of the operation. A good percentage of patients undergoing this surgery do not survive—not because of the surgery, which is almost always successful, but because the human body is not always capable of returning from the dead. The surgery was successful but the patient died is not considered the punch line of a joke with this operation; rather, it is a reality that we in the operating room are all too aware of.
When the surgery was completed, we moved with great efficiency to bring the patient back to life. As the blood was transfused back into his body, I administered more anesthesia so he wouldn’t awaken too quickly. Then the ice was unpacked from around his head so his brain could warm up. As the cold blood was slowly warmed, platelets were added to enhance clotting, and then cardioversion paddles were activated on either side of his heart in hopes of jolting it to a start.
This was the point at which we all held our breath. If the cardioversion jolts did not restore the heartbeat, the patient would die.
On the third try, this patient’s heart began to thump regularly. After several minutes observing the heartbeat, a closure surgeon stepped forward and sewed his chest together. Then this resurrected patient was taken to the intensive care unit (ICU) for recovery.
I was one of the first to greet him when he awoke. He was groggy, but he knew where he was and he was glad to be there. I think he didn’t expect to be alive. When he saw me, he cracked a smile.
“I was watching you guys in the operating room,” he said.
What he said clearly didn’t register, and I must have looked puzzled.
“I said, I was watching you guys in the operating room,” he repeated. “I was out of my body, floating around by the ceiling.”
How can that be true? I asked myself. He was frozen!
“Yeah,” he said. “I saw you just standing at the head of the table, I saw the surgeon sewing the patch on my artery, I saw that nurse . . .” And then he went on to describe the number of surgeons in the operating theater, where they were positioned, the actions of the nurses, and other events that made it clear he had been observing events from somewhere above us.
I could hardly believe what he was saying. Over the course of my twenty-five-year career, I had attended to hundreds of patients, many of whose hearts were barely beating when they arrived in the operating room. There had been patients who claimed to see deceased friends during their cardiac arrest, or who saw lights at the end of tunnels, or who claimed to see people made of light, but I chalked that off to some kind of fantasy and referred them to the psychiatrist. As one of my medical school teachers had said, “If you can’t touch it, hear it, or see it on a monitor, send it to psych.”
But what had happened to this man was different. He had accurately described the operating room I was working in with great clarity. He not only showed signs of being alive when his heart and brain were inert but also of being awake.
“Your heart was stopped,” I said to him. “Your brain didn’t have any activity. You couldn’t have seen anything. Your head was packed in ice.”
The frozen man challenged me again by describing details in the operating room he hadn’t mentioned earlier—information about surgical tools and comments about things that took place well into the surgery.
He was interested in talking more, but I stopped him and ordered a shot of Haldol, a strong antipsychotic drug. The stock market had just closed, and I wanted to see how my investments had done that day. I didn’t tell him that, of course. I told him a sort of truth, that I had other patients to see, and promised I would come back later to talk about his experience. I quickly made my rounds of the ICU and then hurried to my Hummer in the parking lot. Driving it made me feel like a king of the road. No car dared cross me, and if anyone did, I would tailgate them so close that I could see the fear in their eyes as they looked back at me through the rearview mirror. A half hour later, I pulled into the driveway of our Mediterranean-style mansion and ran to my home office to check the stock market on my computer.
Before long, I had forgotten about the frozen man and any indications that his consciousness had left his body.
I can’t remember if the story of the frozen man made it into our family dinner conversation that night. It probably didn’t. I was somewhat ashamed at not staying to listen to his story. By the next day, I decided not to visit with the frozen man. He had been moved to another department and was no longer my charge anyway. And after all, time is money. That’s how materialistic I was.
Within a few days, he had become just another anecdote.
The day after Christmas 2010, the curious memory of the frozen man came rushing back. At the age of fifty-three, I found myself lying in the recovery room of the University of California at Los Angeles Medical Center talking to an anesthesiologist about my own near-death experience (NDE) that had just taken place during surgery.
The problem was that he didn’t believe me, or else he didn’t care. Like the frozen man whose NDE I had ignored myself, I now had ventured into a spiritual world and felt more alive than ever before. Not only had I completely left my body and brain behind and gone into another realm of consciousness, I had returned with an astonishing amount of wisdom that was readily available to me. I knew the other place I visited was completely real, and later it would prove itself again.
Yet as I tried to share all of this information with my colleague, I could tell he wasn’t the least bit interested. In fact, when he promised to return later so I could tell him the entire story, I knew that karma, the idea that you reap what you sow, had now taken place. Just as I had promised to return to the bedside of the frozen man and listen to his story, so too was my colleague making the same promise to me. And like me, he never returned.
It has now become my life’s mission, my dharma, to bring the message of consciousness-based healing to the world, to heal diseases of the soul. I deliver that message to you now in this book. A dream of spiritual peace is a common one. I want to show you how to attain it.|Dying to Wake Up Chapter 1 The Seventh Surgery
It must be cold out, I thought, my teeth chattering slightly. It was December 23, 2010, hours before Christmas Eve, and it felt as if I was in the frigid Himalaya mountains of India instead of the flatlands of Bakersfield, California. I had gone upstairs to bed with an odd mix of symptoms. First I had felt very hot and tired, then cold and shaky. When I began to shiver, I reached for my iPhone and checked the outdoor temperature. It was 50 degrees Fahrenheit.
I shouldn’t be shivering, I thought. As I pulled the blankets closer and felt myself get colder at the same time, I was frightened.
I could hear my wife and children downstairs, preparing for dinner. Plates were being spread out on the table, and I smelled the rich aroma of spices in the Indian food my wife was preparing. Usually such aromas would make my mouth water. Today it made me nauseous.
I covered my head and tried to blot out the television. My wife, Arpana, had turned on CNN about two hours earlier and had left me in our bedroom while she went downstairs to cook dinner. “Try to sleep,” she said. “I’ll wake you when dinner is ready.” I took a pain pill when she left (How many had I taken that day?) and hoped it would give me the peace of sleep. It didn’t. Instead it made me groggy and more angry and frightened. I could feel swelling and heat in my abdomen and scrotum, and although I had a deep need to urinate, I couldn’t coax out more than a few drops.
I don’t deserve this, I thought. I’m a doctor.
I recalled the good old days, years before the six surgeries that brought me to this point.
I had come to Bakersfield from Louisiana to work as a temporary doctor. My assignment was to work one month as an anesthesiologist in the San Joaquin Community Hospital. After years on the East Coast, it was a pleasure to be in the warmth of the San Joaquin Valley and the beauty of California. Before long, I was offered a permanent position at the hospital, and I accepted immediately.
Arpana opened a dental office of her own, and I soon changed hospitals to take a position as an anesthesiologist at the Bakersfield Heart Hospital, an institution dedicated to delicate heart surgeries. Within a few years, I was named head of anesthesiology. A few years after that I joined several of my anesthesiology colleagues in starting a pain clinic where those with chronic pain could receive treatment in an outpatient setting. Soon we were on a road to prosperity that we could hardly believe. We traded our small house for a larger one and then an extremely large house as we built a family of two boys, Raghav and Arjun, and a girl, Ambika.
Our cars went from average Fords and Toyotas to Mercedeses and Lexuses and then to the “supercars” like a Porsche and a Hummer. I dreamed of one day having a Ferrari in my garage that I kept wrapped in a dust cover and took out only for an occasional weekend spin. My goal was bigger everything—house, cars, art collection, bank accounts. At one point in my twenty-five years at the heart hospital, I took a nine-month sabbatical in order to trade stock. I made millions of dollars, sometimes a million dollars in one day, but I lost it as fast as I made it because I thought I could read the direction of the stock market with greater accuracy than the pros. That didn’t happen, and I finally gave up this folly and returned to the hospital.
The goal of my neighbors in the mini-castles around me was the same. Every new house built on the block usually had more square footage than the others. It would have been funny had it not been so serious. Size matters, especially when one is building a monument to oneself for the scale of immortality.
The houses in this neighborhood were all designed to match the image the owner wanted to project. There were Mediterranean villas (ours), Spanish casitas, ultramoderns, and even one home that was a mini-replica of the White House. It was a monstrosity to look at, but everyone in the neighborhood understood the motivation behind it. How else could the owners show they were as big and important as the president of the United States? (The owner sold cars for a living.)
Driving through the neighborhood was like a spin through Disneyland. But driving through the neighborhood would have been totally impossible for those without the pass code for several gates. The community was hermetically sealed, safe from the outside world, and I had come to believe that meant safe from physical illness as well. Doctors don’t get sick. I had come to believe that. And if we do, we can treat the illness immediately, stop it in its tracks.
That is how I viewed myself: a master of my fate, a miracle worker who was immune to all ailments.
Feeling like a master of the universe is easy in the world of modern medicine. In my specialty alone, heart surgery anesthesia, the medical world had made so many advances in technology and techniques that we could literally bring patients back from the dead by doing everything from unclogging an artery with a balloon to replacing it or even dropping in a transplanted heart. The cardiovascular death rate has declined 40 percent in the last decade due to advances like those we administered on a routine basis in our heart hospital. Families wept for joy at the end of a successful heart procedure because they knew we had added many years, perhaps decades, to the life of a loved one.
Maybe it’s a sense of cheating death for others that gives cardiac surgical teams the vague feeling that we can overcome our own death. Of course that isn’t true. The goal can’t be to live forever because no one does, at least not in this body. The goal should be to create a legacy that will live forever. To think of life in any other way is just a myth, the one I was living.
Reality popped that myth for me. In 2008 a routine physical revealed a significant increase in my PSA count, an indication that I had prostate cancer. A biopsy of the prostate gland told me how bad it was. “I have good news and bad news for you,” said my urologist and good friend who called one evening while my wife and I sat drinking tea in the backyard by the golf course our house overlooked. “You have prostate cancer. But it’s in its early stages, and you can have it taken out and you’ll be cured.”
I was fifty-one and in shock. And angry. Why me? What did I do to deserve this?
We went to one of the best prostate surgeons in the country, located across the country in Miami, Florida. I told him I was worried about incontinence, about impotency. He told me not to worry: “I can almost guarantee no complications. After a few weeks you will be back to normal.” He was a genius of this walnut-sized gland and a colleague as well. Why should I doubt what he said?
We scheduled surgery using a procedure known as laparoscopic radical prostatectomy, removal of the entire prostate through small holes in the abdomen using tube-shaped instruments fitted with a video camera and cutting instruments. Within days of the surgery, it was clear that I was going to be incontinent and impotent. The surgeon was sorry. I was angry.
Scar tissue closed my urethra not once but three times. And each time surgeons in Bakersfield had to operate, using laser beams to vaporize the scar tissue. The postsurgical pain was so intense I was forced to take pain pills. I took a lot, and when the pain abated, I continued to take the pills, looking forward to the pleasurable buzz they gave me, along with their painkilling effects.
A fifth surgery at UCLA Medical Center took care of the scarring problem with the direct injection of an antiscarring drug, but by now the incontinence had become intolerable. I had to wear an adult diaper, changing it every two or three hours to avoid getting diaper rash. This was almost impossible, since many of the heart surgeries were long and involved, taking five to six hours sometimes. When that happened, I ran the risk of infection, which required stronger and stronger antibiotics and more pain pills.
Finally my UCLA surgeon recommended an artificial sphincter, an implanted mechanical device that would allow me to control my bladder with the touch of a button strategically placed under the skin. I had the sixth surgery done on December 13, 2010.
But now, less than two weeks later, something horrible had gone wrong: an infection around the artificial sphincter had spread and was filling my abdomen with pus.
I started taking the most powerful antibiotics available at the beginning of the infection. I began with a heavy dose of oral Keflex, and when that didn’t work, I was switched to Cipro, a heavy hitter in the treatment of urinary tract infections. That didn’t work either. Now, the night before Christmas Eve, I could feel the heat and pressure build around my pelvic area, symptoms of a rapidly rising infection.
Arpana came into the room from the kitchen downstairs. She held a tasty hors d’oeuvre plate of mixed treats for me to sample, but when she looked at me, her expression turned to alarm. She nearly dropped the plate as she set it down and pulled back the blanket to look at my face.
“Oh my God,” she said, picking up a thermometer. She shook it and slipped it under my tongue. In a few moments, the mercury rose to 105 degrees.
She rushed downstairs and called UCLA Medical Center, where surgeons had implanted the artificial sphincter. I later learned that when they connected her to the surgeon and she said I had a 105-degree temperature, he told her to get me to the hospital as quickly as possible.
I could hear little of this phone conversation from upstairs. But what I could hear were desperate whispers and hurried conversations and then the rush of the entire family running up the stairs.
Arpana sat me on the edge of the bed and helped me dress, while our children gathered in the room. They watched with fear as their weeping mother struggled to dress me.
“Help us!” she said to our three children. Cautiously they helped me stand and braced me as they took me downstairs, one uncertain step at a time. In the few minutes it took to make it into the front seat of my wife’s BMW, I was exhausted. A fever of such magnitude leaves one both burning hot and shivering cold, a contradiction of symptoms. My daughter covered me with a blanket, and Arpana started the car, tears streaming down her face. She was frightened by my condition and told me later that she was afraid I might worsen quickly in transit. And then in the middle of the mountains that were between home and the hospital, what would she do?
I tried to get comfortable in the car and ignore my wife’s sobs as she accelerated onto the freeway and headed south to Los Angeles, one hundred miles away. I was beginning to wish she had called an ambulance.
The fever and infection had my thoughts in a swirl. As we sped toward Los Angeles, all I could think about were the negatives in my life, a long list that could be organized as: Unlucky, Cancer Patient, Infection Prone, Addict, Depressive, Materialistic, Demanding, Unloving, Egotist, Angry.
Denial of my own illness made me angry with myself. I’m a doctor. Why didn’t I know something was terribly wrong? The truth was that I did know something was terribly wrong. I just didn’t act. Like most other doctors, I didn’t take kindly to illness in my own body and was now paying for my denial.
My anger spread to other events in my life. First, I became angry with God for giving me prostate cancer. What possible good is it to give me such a horrible disease? Why did I deserve something like this?
And then there were the pain pills. As my wife drove me to the hospital that night, I finally admitted to myself that I had crossed the threshold of addiction. The medical definition of addiction is to take more than is prescribed. Because of the surgeries and their complications, I had been prescribed pain pills for my pelvic pain. At first they worked for me, helping me get through the aftermath of the surgeries and the subsequent infections. But as the pain continued, the effect of the narcotics lessened, making routine work and home life more difficult. I took more and stronger doses, longing to stay in control. I finally learned what some of my patients already knew: how easy it is to qualify as an addict when all you long for is to be pain free.
And there was more. The combination of the cancer and my pill addiction had depressed me. To cope with that condition, I had started taking antidepressants. Soon I felt as if they were as necessary to my well-being as the pain pills. Based on my medical training and through addiction specialists at the hospital, I knew that I would have to go to an inpatient facility for at least twelve weeks to end my pill addiction. Why had I lost control of my life?
My son Raghav came to mind. Because he was my eldest, I had been much harder on him than on my other children, expecting him to follow in my footsteps. But he had been in medical school for three years now and was not doing well. Although he had been willing to attend medical school, he lacked enthusiasm, and his grades reflected his disinterest in becoming a physician. Still I had stubbornly insisted that he continue his studies.
Over the years, I had adopted my father’s and grandfather’s Indian theory of child raising, which could be summed up in one often repeated phrase: “A bent nail must be straightened with a hammer.” And though my father never used a hammer, he “straightened me,” as his father had straightened him, whenever he thought I was not living up to my intellectual potential. Though physical punishment was typical in India at the time, I swore I would never lay a hand on my children. But over the years, my father’s anger became my anger, and I had frequently punished my children with it.
Now Raghav probably feared me, perhaps even hated me. Would I have a chance to make it up to him? I wondered as the car roared through this endless night. Where is my son now? Why isn’t he in this car with me now that I really need him?
By the time we pulled into the emergency medical entrance at UCLA, my anger had spread like fire to every part of my life until it touched the truth. My life is my responsibility. I should have been more careful in choosing my path.
When I reached that conclusion, I must have audibly gasped, because one of the attendants who loaded me on the stretcher gave my hand a squeeze of assurance.
“You’re safe at the hospital now,” he said.
I don’t know if I shook my head or nodded. I did know the frightening facts in front of me: that I had a 105-degree temperature and a pelvic infection that antibiotics couldn’t touch.
Based on the speed of this infection, I wasn’t sure I would have another chance. In fact, I supposed I was going to die.
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45 of 49 people found the following review helpful.
but I think that if everyone would take to heart the changes that he was asked to make in his life following his near death expe
By Rochelle Burn
I found this book to be fascinating and couldn't put it down. I found Dr. Parti to be very forthcoming with all of his personal imperfections and how he had to work through them in his life. I found the concept of forgiveness of our parents and grandparents to be very eye opening as we don't always understand why our parents have treated us the way they did. His experience with his father was especially special to me as I didn't always understand my father's ways either. There is a lot of information in the book, but I think that if everyone would take to heart the changes that he was asked to make in his life following his near death experience the world would be a much better place to live in. I think the world needs to make a huge shift from being so materialistic and ego centered to being heart centered.
5 of 5 people found the following review helpful.
Not So Sure
By Jay
My husband and I both read this book because we are interested in the subject and reside in Bakersfield. When my husband finished the book, he looked up at me and stated, "He's still sure full of himself." My thought exactly! I think something happened during his surgery and after, but I'm not convinced EVERYTHING occurred as written. He also claims to have "given" away his 10,000 sq ft mansion. Well, in exchange for it he received a 5,000 sq ft house in the same neighborhood. He still has a huge home. We also learned from people who actually know the author, that he mainly practices his healing in wealthy areas of Los Angeles.
That said, the book was compelling reading, but don't get sucked in.
10 of 11 people found the following review helpful.
A Compass of Spirituality
By michael 7
Reading this tremendous book will give those seeking a breakthrough in their spirituality so many astounding but gentle nudges needed to inspire a deeper journey in seeking their own calling in life. I am so encouraged to re-double my focus on what is most important in life. I hope you find the blessings, revelations, and wisdom that I did that fill this book. If you are serious in seeking the truth and love that binds us together, you will find enlightenment and courage in these pages. Perhaps your own spiritual healing or advancement past a roadblock to understanding our path and our relationship to God. Thank you, doctor, for gently sharing your life as an example of God's love for us.
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